Why You Keep Begging Your Narcissistic Ex to Try Again and How to Stop
Seven steps to heal from the special kind of loneliness that stems from Narcissistic Abuse.
My story.
I used to be ashamed to admit that my Narcissistic ex and I must have broken up and gotten back together over 30 times. Though he had done horrible things to me, I would always eventually seek him out again. Sadly, it wasn’t a subtle sort of seeking out.
In fact, on several occasions, I begged for my Narcissist to come back to me.
During the weeks after we had broken up, I was willing to re-configure my memories of what had occurred in our dynamic, while giving him ultimate leniency, while being heavy-handed about how badly I had allegedly behaved.
I would second guess whether I was as self-aware and competent in relationship as I had thought. The yearning to be with him again was so great, I rationalized his abusive behaviors as reasonable reactions to my having been a very difficult person for him to be around. I made him desperate. Of course, he was a loving, caring, reasonable person, who was acting this way out of extreme desperation.
