It was the hardest thing I have yet to do, leaving the final Narcissist I was with.

They do drive you to complete desperation, while the relationship gives you a weird combination of an addiction to them, as well as severe PTSD.

You will eventually come through this.

It is a dark time. What I can tell you is if you can manage to get distance between yourself and the Narcissist, you will begin to feel your light come back. But, it will first require swearing them off, the same as someone trying to quit heroin would need to do to get sober.

You have already weatherd so much. You are undoubetedly extremely strong, smart, and capable- this is how you have survived thusfar. It will just *feel* like you are dying initially, that you are weak, and you can't do it. But I assure you, if you take that leap of faith and allow yourself to ask for help and be supported, you will discover there is a net to catch you.

One day at a time. <3